Yeah, but if I kill myself, who will feed the kitties?

The thing that hurts the most is having given so much time and energy and hope (not to mention $$) to the good guys, only to have evil triumph after all.

Actually what hurts the most is knowing that the bad times aren't over yet when I had been telling myself the end was in sight. It's like having a terrible dream where the monster's about to eat you. You wake up safe in your bed and think, Thank god, it was just a dream. Then the monster reaches up and grabs your ankle.

Among the things I think might happen next:

- Some news item W has been suppressing until now will come out really soon, making everyone who voted for him feel like the big dumb fuck they are. One can only hope it will be an impeachable offense.

- The results get reversed in Ohio despite it all.

- The results get reversed for some other reason. There is no doubt in my mind *someone* in W's camp has done *something* illegal to cause him to win.

Mark my words, if nothing changes, Bush will take us to war with someone else within this term. Because now he thinks we like him and his...god, I don't even have a word for them. His policies. The ones that mean we're all gonna die. Yeah. And, if nothing changes, I get to spend another four years feeling scared and pissed off every time I think about the government, and how it doesn't represent me, or indeed even listen to me and so many other people when we say things like Don't go to war. I think we were kinda right about that one, assholes.

Where do I buy my "Don't blame me, I voted for Kerry" sticker? I'd also like one that says "Impeach Bush, Arrest Cheney."

Life will go on; I'm just a little - who am I kidding, a LOT - pissed off and sad right now.

By the way, if the rumors about people reading LJ for dissent are true, come and get me, fuckers. You try anything, I'll scream so loud the WORLD will hear me.

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As I told Zee, I got past "I'll just kill myself now" really quickly. Never even seriously considered it. I also got past "OK, I'll just move to Vancouver" as well. I love Seattle. I'll never leave it. And I love this country despite the fact that a plurality of its citizens are apparently either brain-dead or actually hate the other half enough to want them screwed over just a little more than the screwing-over they're getting themselves. 'cause we're all fucked.

Now I'm at "What can *I* do to make sure he doesn't fuck things up so badly that we'll never recover?"

And I think the first thing I need to do is stop hating. Which will be hard, because, well, the Republicans deserve it. But it doesn't hurt them or change them, and it just makes me feel like shit. And I have to believe enough of them can see reason that they can keep things from going straight to hell.