comment!fic
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vashti's lovely comment!fic reminded me I meant to post mine. First-arc comment fic, no less. I expect the Ice Capades in hell any day now. ;-)
The prompt was: Death Note, Rem/Misa, what happens when you break the rules?
The Only Thing
Shinigami don't feel emotions like humans do. The grand passion Rem knows Misa imagined when she heard about Gelus, which made her go starry-eyed and clutch the notebook to her chest, was not the real story.
No, shinigami love is muted and slow. It creeps up on you, a shadow, a whisper, as if it knows it should not be at all. You watch the humans scurry about, convinced of their own importance, making grand dramas of events no one will remember soon enough, and for the most part, you feel only a dull pity. Their lives burn away so quickly, and they do not even know enough to know how silly and small they are.
Until you notice, one day, and only because another has, one human whose life flares more brightly than the others'. You learn, or remember, or become aware of, the existence of regret, that she should fall so soon. You know it is not for you to care, but you cannot help yourself.
She is an innocent, Rem has thought of Misa, more than once, recognizing that perhaps no one else would see her as such. Rem should find the girl's utter belief in love absurd—the truest, purest, most passionate lovers are all dust in the end, after all, like everyone. Love does not matter. The universe is boring and callous and utterly indifferent. Shinigami are not meant to care at all, and they are certainly not meant to act, if they are so foolish as to care nevertheless.
Rem knows all this, knows she is as deluded as any human. But she watches events shape themselves in such a way that Misa will surely die, or be jailed forever: her life that flares so brightly, her stupid, beautiful hope, both snuffed out. Rem cannot let it happen. And as she lifts her pen for the last time, she knows love matters after all. It is the only thing powerful enough to kill a shinigami.
vashti's lovely comment!fic reminded me I meant to post mine. First-arc comment fic, no less. I expect the Ice Capades in hell any day now. ;-)The prompt was: Death Note, Rem/Misa, what happens when you break the rules?
The Only Thing
Shinigami don't feel emotions like humans do. The grand passion Rem knows Misa imagined when she heard about Gelus, which made her go starry-eyed and clutch the notebook to her chest, was not the real story.
No, shinigami love is muted and slow. It creeps up on you, a shadow, a whisper, as if it knows it should not be at all. You watch the humans scurry about, convinced of their own importance, making grand dramas of events no one will remember soon enough, and for the most part, you feel only a dull pity. Their lives burn away so quickly, and they do not even know enough to know how silly and small they are.
Until you notice, one day, and only because another has, one human whose life flares more brightly than the others'. You learn, or remember, or become aware of, the existence of regret, that she should fall so soon. You know it is not for you to care, but you cannot help yourself.
She is an innocent, Rem has thought of Misa, more than once, recognizing that perhaps no one else would see her as such. Rem should find the girl's utter belief in love absurd—the truest, purest, most passionate lovers are all dust in the end, after all, like everyone. Love does not matter. The universe is boring and callous and utterly indifferent. Shinigami are not meant to care at all, and they are certainly not meant to act, if they are so foolish as to care nevertheless.
Rem knows all this, knows she is as deluded as any human. But she watches events shape themselves in such a way that Misa will surely die, or be jailed forever: her life that flares so brightly, her stupid, beautiful hope, both snuffed out. Rem cannot let it happen. And as she lifts her pen for the last time, she knows love matters after all. It is the only thing powerful enough to kill a shinigami.
