A fish without a bicycle
Oct. 7th, 2004 10:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
darklunaI've gotten accustomed enough to being single that I no longer have the urge to buy a pair of tickets when there's a show I want to go to in the near future.
I want to get back the time I have fruitlessly and uselessly spent thinking about boys, trying to find a boy, and fretting over what will happen with a boy when I do find one who might be worthy. It pisses me off that I've just squandered so much of my life. I could have written god knows how much more. I could be a gourmet cook. I could have saved for, bought, and learned to play my own damn guitar. Just in the time I've wasted.
It's not the fault of boys, thought they certainly have failed to help or be useful in any real sense. It's my fault for letting myself dwell.
You'd think I could have seen the futility of it all before the age of 30. Hmm. Maybe that's why all my friends who are older than I say that 30 is the beginning of the really good stuff. Because you finally learn not to give a shit about things you can't control.
I shall be a catlady spinster. A really in-shape one. With a World Fantasy Award. And her own cooking torch. And a really clean house. And a level 70 EQ toon, because catlady spinsters need to goof off sometimes too. :-)
I want to get back the time I have fruitlessly and uselessly spent thinking about boys, trying to find a boy, and fretting over what will happen with a boy when I do find one who might be worthy. It pisses me off that I've just squandered so much of my life. I could have written god knows how much more. I could be a gourmet cook. I could have saved for, bought, and learned to play my own damn guitar. Just in the time I've wasted.
It's not the fault of boys, thought they certainly have failed to help or be useful in any real sense. It's my fault for letting myself dwell.
You'd think I could have seen the futility of it all before the age of 30. Hmm. Maybe that's why all my friends who are older than I say that 30 is the beginning of the really good stuff. Because you finally learn not to give a shit about things you can't control.
I shall be a catlady spinster. A really in-shape one. With a World Fantasy Award. And her own cooking torch. And a really clean house. And a level 70 EQ toon, because catlady spinsters need to goof off sometimes too. :-)
